You are the Reason...

To My Children,

You are the reason 

I get up in the morning

The reason I breathe...

The reason my hair is gray

and my house is a mess...

I know things are hard now and you may not understand why, but everything I do is for the 3 of you and Daddy too! Mommy going to school has been a sacrifice for all of us. I cannot tell you how difficult it has been to leave you at daycare and sit in a classroom full of boys nearly a decade younger than me learning about stuff that sometimes seems like it might be in a foreign language. Sometimes I doubt myself and wonder if I should really be here, but you all believe in me and that is my motivation. As soon as classes are out I run to get you, I can't get to daycare fast enough it seems. 

You may not know that 60% of college is supposed to take place outside of class {at home}. That's right, I'm supposed to spend about 40 hours doing school work and studying at home every week. Not likely when I have the 3 of you to take care of, I only have the evenings after you go to bed to get it all done {Can we say LATE nights and EARLY mornings}! I may not have the best GPA in class but I am usually the only girl in class, the only parent, I'm almost never late and I'm working my butt off for those "average" grades. I have drained us of money, that is for sure...but I promise you it will all be worth it in the end! I know you will all understand the importance of hard work and see all of the rewards that come of it! Let's not forget the importance of friends and family too, we couldn't have done this without their help and support! 

We only have to "survive" this last year of school {Yay, just 1 year left}. I feel like I'm living 2 lives right now; the life of an Engineering Student and the life of a Mommy and Wife. Sometimes they seem completely separate and other times I'm better at making those lives work together. In May those lives will finally merge and I can just be {me}!

I'm so proud of you for being so helpful and understanding even when things have been so hard. You are my world and this is all for you!!

Max, Jax and Bri you are the reason...

Love ya,

Mommy